"We can’t be together because we’re in different places. And we strive for connection, any we can get. Skype, phone calls, emails, texts, sending gifts. We have to try to touch with our hearts and minds since our bodies can not. It’s the worst. But it’s also a new, brilliant way of reaching each other. We get to share so much, because we’re getting to share so little in the way “normal” couples do. We take what we can get.. The distance doesn’t matter. It doesn’t erase you from my life. It doesn’t weaken your presence. It only makes you more important, more lovely, and more worth fighting for. "

Karen Noble, Distance Doesn’t Matter, I Still Think About You All Day Long


I miss you so much I want to cry, guess the accumulated stress from school and missing you ain't a good combination. If you were here, you'll have gotten me a hot chocolate and we will talk for hours and everything will be okay again. If you were here..

This weekend is gonna be a quiet one, without much of skyping you because you'll be too busy being involved with beer bike. But it's okay, its gonna be super fun for you and go win that banner!

Anyway I've just come to the realization that we do spend at least a good half hour or an hour (almost) everyday sitting in front of our laptop talking to each other. And that is something I don't want to change. I don't ever want to run out of things to say to you, I want us to always talk to each other about stuff, big or small, significant or mundane stuff. I'm gonna have another three years of this Skype-talking thing with you, and I don't know what's gonna change, nor what's gonna happen in the future. Regardless, someday when we all look back at this period of our life, I hope everything is well worth it.

"I know I love you because I worry about the stuff only people who love you worry about, like the amount of quality sleep you get a night and how much you drink when you’re sad and whether you’re getting enough vitamin B. I know I love you because I freak out when you’re obviously disintegrating yet too stubborn and too “I’m fine” to actually go to the doctor, even though I do that sort of thing myself."
 Thought catalog

This seems especially apt now that we're both ill. At times like this, I wish I'm in Houston to take care of you and nurse you back to health, and only then will I stop worrying about you. I worry for you way too much, you do too, but maybe that's how it's supposed to be. 

Just want to hug you to sleep and wake up next to you, and everything would be much better.

"Not really sure how to feel about us,
something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
it takes me all the way
I want you to stay."

I miss you so much that sometimes it gets dangerously easy for me to want to be angry and upset and jealous and all that nasty stuff, instead of being thankful for what I have. There are days when I feel so inadequate for not being there with you. Just please know that I love you so much. L